T Minus Two Weeks Til Tummy Tuck Time!
"the new me" April 24, 2009
What a journey this has been!
I can't believe in less than two weeks I will be lying on an operating table having all this ugliness removed! I have been waiting for this day for so long, but as it gets closer - the more terrified I find myself.
As some of you know - I am no stranger to surgeries. I have had:
Tonsillectomy - 1996
Two pregnancies - one of which ended in a c-section (2007)
gastric bypass (2008)
gall bladder removed (2008)
appendix removed (2009 while pregnant)
2009 - hernia repair (2009 while pregnant)
2009 - bowel obstruction correction (2009 while pregnant)
but for some reason I cannot get over these unrelenting feelings of fear. I am scared that the pain is going to be unlike anything else I have ever had to endure.
I am also worried about recovery. I think it is going to take quite a bit of time to get back to my old self afterwards. From what I've researched and read it takes quite a while just to walk upright afterwards. I've read that you really need a lot of help (on and off potty, into and out of shower, etc) for the first couple days; sounds like you are pretty helpless at that point. I am hoping that Doug taking off work Wednesday (day of surgery), Thursday and Friday and having the weekend - Saturday - Sunday - will be enough.
I know my weight lifting restrictions will be 10 pounds for a while - good thing Alex is barely 9 pounds. I really don't have to lift Addy for anything that I can think of through the day - so I am hoping I will be okay with her.
It seems like forever since I have worked at my business; between the pregnancy, postpartum and now the surgery - it will probably be a minimum of a couple more months before I feel able to do that again.
On one hand I wish that surgery day was today; on the other I wish it was... never. I wish I would have never let my body go so badly that it has come to this. But I do want to clarify that I am by no means doing this out of vanity, it's more of a necessity. After losing that amount of weight - there is a lot of excess skin that cause a lot of hygiene issues.
I guess I have rambled on enough. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for this procedure - I really, really appreciate it!
"the old me" Day before surgery: June 8, 2009
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