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2:59 AM
I had a gallbladder attack 11/05/08. I went to the ER and was told that my gallbladder was "full of sludge and stones" and needs to come out. I scheduled my surgery for today.
I woke up this morning and to my AMAZEMENT.... I hit ONE-DERLAND!!!!
WHOOOO HOOOOO!!!!
2:59 AM
I NEVER DO THAT! WOW!
What do you think?...
{I think I look like a drag queen! LOL BUT I did have the courage to do it, that's what matters ;) }
I was pretty sad, though. I started drinking with everyone and realized "DUH!" I can't drink! I was in a lonely place there for a while- watching everyone have some drinks, chill out and have fun. I still had fun, but I do miss drinking :(
{I still played beer pong... but my poor partner had to drink all my beer for me. Talk about taking one for the team!}
2:59 AM
Current mood: accomplished
Lately I have reached a couple goals. I have now lost a "Christina"! HAHA! She currently weighs 53 pounds and I have lost that much. Until today; I've lost 56 pounds. Now I have lost half of the weight I need to lose!
Things are going pretty good with the weight loss and people are really starting to comment. It is really hard to get used to all the different attention, but I'm not complaining! LOL
2:59 AM
Current mood: ecstatic!
I just went clothes shopping for the first time since surgery because I could no longer keep up with pulling up my pants as I walked. I can only imagine how sloppy I was looking.
I went down 2 pants sizes and a bra size and cup size!
11:59 PM
Current mood: ecstatic! 
My 2nd WOW Moment!
I just went clothes shopping for the first time since surgery because I could no longer keep up with pulling up my pants as I walked. I can only imagine how sloppy I was looking 
I went down 2 pants sizes and a bra size and cup size!
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2:59 AM
Current mood: reflective
Well at this time 4 weeks ago I was heading to the hospital for my life-changing weight loss surgery. Since then it has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs. Emotionally I am constantly changing, physically too. I am down 36 pounds in 28 days... not too bad. I really didn't know what to expect as far as weight loss, nor my health conditions. I am off all of my prior medications, too. I only take a few units of insulin if my sugar is over 150- it rarely ever is. It is very hard to get used to eating small meals several times a day, not drinking while I eat and the diet restrictions.
At this point I am able to eat pretty much anything that is soft. I am not yet allowed raw fruits or vegetables and will not be able to do so for several more weeks.
I have had a few bouts of being sick because of the surgery. I have been pushing the envelope and tried too much sugar free icecream and got sick once while grocery shopping. I had too much fat in my food at Fazolis in Lansing recently and I got some stuck ham here at home the other day and had to vomit to get it up, and I got sick eating some sausage that I know I shouldn't have eaten- I never actually got sick but sure didn't feel well for a while. It is all really scary during the sickness but when it passes I feel SO much better.
I have an appointment with my surgeon on Thursday. I am hoping that he will be able to figure out what this golfball-sized lump is under my incision- a seroma, scar tissue, or whatnot.
I have really lacked energy to do much. I have, however, been to the Detroit Zoo, Potter Park Zoo in Lansing and Greenfield Village. Those are pretty much the extent of my exercise. I have made a goal to get on the Wii Fit at least every other day and ride my bike on the alternate days. Things are getting easier mentally- I do not pout anymore when I am around people that eat normally. I think it helps that Doug is eating really well. He is also down around 25 pounds!!! I am so proud of him!
This blog has turned into a lot of random rambling... I hope I convey my points LOL.
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2:59 AM
Current mood: worried/scared
I just called the surgeons office this morning after finding a golf ball sized mass under my biggest incision from RNY gastric bypass. I was worried that it was some oddly-placed hernia but the nurse I spoke with more or less assured me that it was likely a "seroma". I have an appointment with my surgeon on the 10th (in one week). I asked if this issue would be okay until then or if I would have to try to get in sooner. She said that more than likely it would be okay to wait but she will discuss all of this with the surgeon and call me back...
Doesn't help that I have MTHFR to worry about... worried that this might have ties to that blood clotting disorder...
Waiting patiently...
Update: 07/03/2008, 2:22 PM:
I just got a call from the nurse at the surgeon's office. She let me know that she spoke with my surgeon and he is okay with waiting to see me until my appointment next week. He thinks that it is either the seroma or simply scar tissue that has built up. Time will tell...
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2:59 AM
Current mood: curious
I've seen this a couple times- papaya enzyme- what do you use it for?
For things like this, is it something you were recommended to take from doctors/dieticians or is it something you just started on your own?
"I have used it when food (meat/protein) is stuck. It works by increasing and loosening your mucus secretions and also breaking down protein...so if food is stuck, it will help it slide through faster in theory. It hasn't done much to help me, but I still keep it on hand. I heard about it here on OH, and have asked my RD/NUT about it, and she said that some people have said it is helpful. It's not something I take as a regular daily supplement."
"Nope, I started taking it on my own...it's a natural protein eater....if you have food "stuck".. that horrible stuck feeling from eating a big piece of meat or you ate too fast and food has blocked up into your "throat feeling". Eat some papaya enzyme.. and it will tenderize the protein.. It ONLY works with protein.. not fruit or veggies. An emergency remedy is also meat tenderizer...you mix 2 tblspns of meat tenderizer in a VERY warm glass of water and chug it down. The meat tenderizer tastes GROSS!! It will probably make you vomit before it actually gets a chance to work on the offending protein.. but if you are in desperate need of moving that protein because of such pain...you mind the outcome.Papaya enzyme taste a hell of a lot better.. it comes in it's natural "fruity" flavor or you can get it in mint flavor and it works in about 15 mins - 30 mins....I swear by it!!"
"XXX introduced me to it and OMG I'm so thankful to her for it!!
Earlier I had my breakfast stuck and remembered I keep a small container of it in my desk drawer and OMG I feel great now it works FABULOUSLY!!"
"I was able to find mind at Trader Joe's. I would imagine it would be easy to find at GNC, a health food store, Vitamin Shoppe, etc."
"Actually you can find it at Wal-mart ..in the health food section or the pharmacy diet aids. .and some of the Walgreens and local grocery stores...check both sections.. some have it one place and not the other..it comes in a bottle like vitamins or you can get a roll of it, like tums or rolaids. I have a bottle for home and roll of it in my purse..."
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2:59 AM
Current mood: optimistic
So it's been two weeks since my surgery and things are going great.
Up until yesterday I had been losing 1-3 pounds a day religiously. I started my monthly cycle and that could very well be the reason the scales stopped yesterday. Yesterday and today the scales didn't move one way or the other. I presume I am retaining water and everything will get back on track within the week. What an awesome feeling it was to get on there everyday and see it going further and further down, instead of up! I have lost 26 pounds in 15 days and I have 87 more to get to MY goal and 100 more to get to my SURGEONS VERY OPTIMISTIC (quite possibly unattainable- since I am so tall) goal.
Up until yesterday I could only eat "full and clear liquids" which consisted of things like:
Protein drinks
Tomato juice
Oatmeal
Pudding
Yogurt
Jello
Sugarfree drinks
Gatoraid
Sugarfree popsicles
Broth
Decaff Coffee
Milk
Carnation Instant Breakfast
Cottage cheese
Mashed potatoes
Strained soups
Now I am finally able to add some:
Pureed soups, vegetables, meats, refried beans, applesauce, really ripe bananas, canned fruit.
After this week I will be able to add more cheeses, meats, deli meats, and such.
Lately my meals look like:
Breakfast: 1/2 packet oatmeal
Snack: 6 oz V8
Lunch: 4 pineapple chunks or 2 oz. applesauce, mashed potatoes or refried beans
Snack: 6 oz milk, sometimes a slight amount of peanut butter
Dinner: few bites of chicken chewed and chewed and chewed, a pinch of shredded cheese
Snack: sf popsicle
I never knew I could survive on so little LOL
The pain is getting so much better and I am able to do so much more. Each day I try to get in some sort of activity whether it be cleaning house, walking or riding the bike. Soon enough I will be able to get on the Wii on a regular basis.
Emotions are my biggest problem right now. I am always surrounded by people who can eat 'normally' and I never will again. I no longer get ANY satistaction from food. Food is now simply fuel for me. I doesn't even taste good, but I know I cannot live without it so I do what I have to do.I have been having a lot of feelings of 'did I do the right thing?' and 'I hope skinny and healthy is worth it'. It's very heartwrenching to have your best friend taken away and replaced with crap. I have FAR more issues with food than I thought and should have focused more on this prior to surgery. Perhaps my mind would wrap around this new lifestyle. I still believe that I needed the surgery. There will be a day that I will be completely content with this whole concept; today, is however- not the day. It's too soon, the umpteen million changes are just too fresh.
My advice to people interested in the surgery is please! research! learn about you and figure out your ties to food, first. There are serveral surgeries, too. Not just the gastric bypass and the lap band. Find the one right for you. There are many caring, lovely people on www.obesityhelp.com for ANY question under the sun.
I am no longer on my LONG list of medications for
Diabetes
High Blood Pressure
High Cholesterol
Acid Reflux (heartburn)
Etc.
Well... I am on a sliding scale insulin for my diabetes. If my sugar is ever over 150 I have to give myself a few units according to how high it is. I have only had to give myself a few shots since I left the hospital. I am hoping and both my surgeon and family doctors think that I will be off insulin and be considered non-diabetic in no time!
OH!!! And more good news! Doug is down over 17 pounds too!!!
2:59 AM
Current mood: Smokin' hot!
In the WLS (weight loss surgery) world... they call these sorts of events- WOW MOMENTS!
Tonight was good.I ventured to Trader Joe's for the first time tonight. It was an excellent shopping experience; however overwhelming like I thought it would be. There are just so many foods that I am not familar with. I picked up lots of new things to try, I cannot wait.
Anyway...
As I was checking out the cashier was terribly friendly. I had already told him that it was my first time being there and didn't really understand how the checkout counter worked (since it was so small and such). He started scanning my stuff and I didn't know what else to do so I bagged it all. I bought a ton and it was taking forever. During this process the questions started flying "did you find everything you were looking for?" "What did you do today?" "What are you up to tonight?" Among question after question... It was then that I looked up at him and caught his young, puppy face smiling at me in a way that I have not seen someone look at me in a long time. His smile quickly turned upside down when I replied with the only thing I could think: "hanging out with my daughter and husband". LOL I froze, I didn't know what to say other than what poured outta my mouth. I caught him glimpse at my hand at that very moment to see that I did, indeed, have a ring. He was young, and attractive and obviously found me attractive. It's been a VERY long time since I felt that way. I actually walked out of the store literally trembling, with a cheesy grin on my face taboot. I walked to my car and loaded it feeling like I was going on a date again, butterflies and everything. Weird. LOLIt's simply amazing what one precious person can do to change your entire mood.
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2:59 AM
Current mood: inquizative
curious... is the only reason they tell you not to drink while eating because it will push the food through and you will no longer feel full? Or is there a medical reason that it will do some harm? I am in the early stages and I never feel hungry nor full, I just eat because I know I have to. So I'm thinking drinking while eating isn't going to hurt, at this point anyway??
“Yes, that's the primary reason they tell you not to drink while eating. I've also heard that the water can kind of mush the food down in your stomach (pouch) so you can eat more than you would without the water. It's great that you're not experiencing the hunger feelings right now, but you're early out, and chances are those sensations will return within a few weeks or months. You've heard this surgery referred to as a tool, and that's how you have to remember it. A lot of the old feelings are going to come back. I'm 8 months out and I get ravenously hungry sometimes. In time, you will be able to eat more food. These early days are your opportunity to create the new habits that will help you maintain your weight loss long-term. Drinking water with your meal may not hurt you now, but it will be a big problem later on. There's a reason "drinking with meals" is tops on the list of reasons why people have re-gain problems. It's just not worth it...use this time to re-train your brain and your body, you'll thank yourself for it!”
“Don't set yourself up for disaster; just get in the habit now. Is there any reason why you want to drink with your meals? My thought is that the reason probably isn’t going to go away once you "feel full". Why not just break the habit now?”
“I didn’t get all my fluids in the first two weeks, that’s for sure. It gets better and better every day and, per my NUT, that’s ok as long as i try my best. You may want to call your NUT and see what they think. I know some people that don’t drink for 15 mins before and 30 mins after. there would be an extra 15 mins every meal if your NUT would approve that. I'd call them, tell them the problem, tell they how much you ARE getting in, and see what they say.”
“only other thing that i have not seen mentioned... it can cause dumping and who the hell needs that”
“Drinking while eating is the BEST way to REGAIN later. Yes, drinking while you are eating will push the food through and you won't feel full as long. But while you are pushing that food through the stoma you are slowly but surely stretching that stoma out and, over time - like a year or so out when you do feel hunger and you can eat more food, you will be so sorry you drank while you ate. If you keep your stoma small, then you will have that restriction 10 years from now - and you are going to need it. Drinking while I eat - and not drinking AT LEAST a 1/2 hour after eating (usually an hour) is the one rule I never, ever break. The reason you don't feel full now is because your nerve endings are still healing from surgery. Give it about a month and you will be get that feeling.”
“I haven't read the rest of the replies yet, so many someone already addressed this. There are TWO reasons why we don't drink and eat at the same time:1. The reason you stated.... food washes through the pouch faster with water and will leave you hungry sooner. It will also wash the food through AS you’re eating, so you'll be able to consume more food in one sitting than you should be able to. The whole point of having a small pouch is to only allow us to eat a very small amount of food. Don't defeat the purpose of your surgery by working around this aspect.2. With food you will be FORCING food out of your pouch and into your intestine before it has had a chance to begin any digestion in the stomach. Although digestion is greatly reduced in the pouch, there is still some of this happening. Your food mixes with the digestive enzymes in your saliva and begins to get broken down in your pouch. The food needs to stay in the pouch until it's ready to be pushed into the intestine. By drinking with your meals you are forcing that food to be pushed out before it's ready. Repeatedly doing this will cause the food to stretch your Stoma (the opening between your pouch and intestine). A stretched Stoma is much worse than a stretched pouch. If you stretch your stomach to the same size as your pouch, then you essentially no longer have a pouch --- you just have a 20-foot long stomach (your intestine) that you can pack as much food into as you want. Your need to protect that Stoma and be very careful not to damage it.Do some research on the Pyloric Valve. We no longer have that after surgery, so we need to manually do the work it used to do automatically.Sometimes knowing WHY we have rules makes it easier to follow the rules we're given.”“For me the drinking/eating thing wasn't such a hard habit to break...but it does get tricky for me with the timing. In the mornings for instance. There are two things I need to accomplish before I leave for work...take my vitamins (cuz if not I’ll forget) and eat breakfast. Well I had to coordinate that a little. I take my vitamins as soon as i get out of the bed and drink a full glass of water. About 45 minutes later the water has passed through and I can proceed with breakfast. It helped me to get on a food/water schedule. That may help you as well. Sometimes, though, if I eat something too salty (happened a couple of times) I feel like I need something to take that taste away. I eat a grape. It's got the liquid in it, gets rid of the taste, and doesn't put a significant amount of fluid in my pouch. Just my two cents.”“I am about 10 weeks out and still have a hard time with protein. When I drink to soon after eating, the fluid just sits on top of the food and I puke it out (sorry for the visual). It doesn’t flush my food, just chest pain, so I don’t do it. It was a very hard habit for me to kick. Actually I just found that at 8 weeks everything got easier for me... I can drink a lot more, and faster, and I can eat a lot better. This is the hardest thing I have ever done! GREAT job on your weight loss thus far. Now I only wait about 30 min after I eat to drink, but find even that hard in this hot weather. Good luck, and keep posting all your questions... no question is a stupid question, and that’s what boards are for. We all know to call our docs, but sometime we need to talk to others who have been thru it.. For reassurance and guidance!!! I know I do!!”“I personally believe drinking with my meals was one of the MAIN reasons I got SMO in the first place. Run to Taco Bell - have 3 of those monstrous cups worth of Diet Pepsi. Washed all those tacos and bean burritos away only to replace it a couple hours later because I was starving. Post-op it's no different except for the fact you can really undo a lot of what you signed up for when you got a restrictive procedure. Drinking with meals is bad news and I will NEVER do it again. And that is something I can say with absolute conviction because I think it's seriously bad news to anyone considering it. You're sooooo new out. Please be kind to yourself. Do what you can. I took water with my everywhere. To the bathroom, to the store, everywhere. Go invest in some water bottles and bring them with you no matter what. In the beginning you have to be that focused to get your water when you can. Relearning everything isn't easy but it can be done.”
